I'm a Thinker

      I have a big imagination. Sometimes it's bad and sometimes it's good. I am also a big thinker. So of you tell me something during the day, i might think about it at night. That's just the way I am!
      Lately, I have been living in the past. Yeah... specifically my most embarassing moment. Yeah everybody has one or so. The thing is, is that every time i look back i think, "Uugghh, I should have listened!" Yep someone told me not to and i did it! That does not help me!
      I should not be wrapped up in the past. I know it's hard not to be, but the only reason you should look back is to see how far you've come.

                                                      Don't dwell on the past;
                                                          live in the present
                                                      and hope for the future.

       So if you are wrapped in the past think to yourself "The past has past and there is nothing i can do about it. Maybe if that one thing didn't happen i might not have had all the blessings i have now!" You have heard the saying "Count your Blessings", it helps in times like this. This has helped me get over my past and look towards a brighter future!
       Hope this helped and if you have anything you are struggling with and need encouragement, comment below. I would be happy to help!

"Goodbye'ing"

    I am sure everyone has been through some "goodbye'ing". During Christmas break i had to choose to leave my friends at school. It was one of the hardest choices of my life so far. I loved them all, they were family to me. So many great relationships and knowledge came out of the school. I will never ever forget them.
    The other day i went back to the co-op i used to go to and i got the warmest welcome EVER! It made me cry, missing everyone. The tightest huggs were given to me and i felt so much love, i almost burst!
    During my year and a half there, i had always smiled every time i walked through the doors; wether i had a bad morning or not. I realize now that it was the presence of God radiating out of every heart. I realized i really would miss the place that made me cry over stress so many times.
    I could tell that God was guiding my steps. He put me there and He took me out. He put the people there in my life for strengthening when it was needed. He gave me so many strong relationships that i will treasure in my heart forever. Never will i forget the people that stretched their arms wide to receive me as their friend.
   

Living

     Alot of times during my youth group i get these awesome mind blowing thoughts that would do well for a subject to preach on. On Sunday, we were talking about wanting and desiring things of this world. This is what i came up with:
     Without God what is there to live for? With God you have a purpose to live your life. Non of this YOLO, crazy  suff. Our life is to gloryify God and bring others to Him. This got me thinking: why am i here when God could have just made everyone and not given them a choice but to love Him? Free Will is the answer. God gave us free Will cause He wants us to chose. If we were like robots and "controled" by Him then it wouldn't really be love. Our life is grow in relationship with God. This life we live is for our Heavenly Father.

Groups

     Have you ever felt left out? I am sure everybody has. There are groups of people and they hang out all the time. There is just no group for me. This makes me feel unique, but i also like someone to talk to all the time. I know that it is God's will for me to not get into different groups.
     My sister has an accountability partner. Not only that but also someone she can talk to about anything. I have been on the search for one also. "Things never happen the same way twice my dear" -Aslan. I will have a different story to tell from my sister. I put it into God's hands and when i wrote the sentence explaining it in my journal, this one girl popped into my head. That made me smile. God gives me joy when i don't feel like having it. I love those moments!

Resolution, Searching, and Believing

Since it's the new year i have made a resolution:
   I am on a search to find one of my friends from 5th grade and get in contact with her.
           I am going to look on Google Plus, Facebook, Instagram and more.
  There was this one girl in 5th grade who I tried to lead to Christ. Now that I look back at it I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready to lead someone because I wasn't done following. I needed to have my strengthening before I could strengthen others.
           I believe now that I am strong in the faith. I've heard His calling and gained strength through it. I belive that this is what God is calling me to do because i am so excited about it!
           I would love it if you would pray for those who have the longing like i do to share the gospel with others.